Disturbing night reading. Thanks, Chekhov!

:) hey I'm just popping in. Not sure for how long...

All I know about Pascal is his "Pascal's Wager" that theist people love))) Anything else you've found in his works that you liked?

Hi Brian,

Oh I've tried that the other day. ) So boring! This mad horse of a brain won't get duped by that! I wish!)) 

I listed to this guided meditation one night and it really helped. But the next night it didn't, haha, guess because it was already known to me and so .... boring. 

What does seem to help best is some silly comedy type video clips.

And massage. Wow, I am liking the effects of that, been to 6 sessions so far, and I can feel I am more relaxed than before. Although I am apparently a touch case for them poor masseuse girls, muscles are too strained they say. But getting better. 

Hey D O'B!

Was thinking you've forgotten all about this blog) seeing how it was technically abandoned for a year, I wouldn't expect many people to stick around anyway.

Appreciate you making me chuckle, even though at Kirk's expense))

I'm always glad to hear from you. 

Think I remember you too, Aaron! Glad to hear back from you as well.)

Yep, started falling asleep to movies and such, and it is much better. On worst days I'd sleep with movie on pause with remote close just in case I wake up during the night and remember some disturbing thoughts, so I can put myself back to sleep with some distracting movie. 

I used to work at nights, but trying to keep myself to 'normal' schedule and avoid overworking, which is easy for me bc work is from home and I've been abusing that, but following doctors advice trying to be more gentle with my nervous system, have a regiment, cut down on coffee etc. All those old people habits, right?)) Well, still no nap time for me though, haha.

Well, remember vaguely, of course, I'm a vain pretty woman, of course, most of my brain is naturally allocated for makeup and instagram selfies 

Yes, still got the book, thank you!

Dumb movies are the best for nighttime soothing. I actually love me some scary movies, give me some haunted house or murderous doll and I'm happy))) 

Work from home is great, but often too tempting to keep on working till it's time to sleep, which is bad sleep hygiene, as I now realize. So trying to leave work few hours before sleep as most people would normally do. Or at least only do some very easy tasks at night, not try to write a piece of code and than see it in my dreams, as has happened a few times.

I'm studying for another profession that'd require me to get out of the house, but only as much as I want to, always trying to be my own boss and as independent as possible. Being a complete hermit is tiring as well sometimes. Still searching for that balance of just enough interaction with people) 

How have you been?

Yep, fake nightmare movies take my attention away from real-life ones. What's also working are some good movies seen a while ago: know they're good, know what's in them, safe. 

Funny that, we're both training for new work in the similar kind of setting))) Mine also envolves a massage table. 

Also, been getting massages myself not long ago, very helpful,not just for the body but for the mental state. Some girls are even fun to chat with, an additional bonus. 

Hey, lucky financially is lucky, still better to be miserable and able to afford most money can buy than miserable and pressed for funds. Good luck with your studies!

Haha