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18-03-2017 Hi Irina!(sorry my English is not good so I will do my best!) I really cant believe I found I female brain like yours! I used to be the classic white sheep full immersed in this Matrix. But I always felt that something was missing. Since I was a kid I always had questions about life universe and whats beyond the curtains they show us. As I had none to talk about it I was always trying to fit in their white sheep herd. Fortunately 2 years ago I met a person that actually have the same point of view that you have and finally i found myself free to express my self and actually open the curtains. The only problem (or bless) is that I really cant anymore hang around with my old friends I feel it so bored and pointless (ok yeah everything is pointless in this life but why make it more pointless than already is?) Many times I wished euthanasia was legal also in my country (i'm Italian but grown up and live in Greece). Sometimes I really feel life so pointless and unnecessary to struggle with the everyday (stupid) problems of society that i want just to game over but than I think that i will devastate my parents life so that is the moment I feel more prisoner than any other moment. I m not afraid of death i'm afraid of suffering to death. So if I decide when and how to end it that doesn't make it a taboo as for most people death is. I loved this article you wrote and sincerely made me a little more optimist in my pessimist world You do a great job with your blog and videos! I admire how well you put on paper (virtual) and videos your thoughts! Keep it on! |
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20-03-2017
Hi Falmy! Your English is pretty good, thanks for taking the time to register and leave your comment! Always nice to hear from like-minded people. Yeah, suicide is tough on those who love you so it makes sense to weigh how hard it is for you to continue vs how hard it would be for them to go through your suicide. Incidently, I was just reading Benatar's short book (essay?) on this topic. Called "Suicide: A Qualified Defense" I've been rather apathetic with new videos or even blog posts the last couple of years, but glad you liked my existing ones. |
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26-03-2017 @Falmy Before the interwebs, it was extremely lonely, and growing up in a very strict religious household with country roots made it hard to stay sane with the madness all around, from parents, to teachers, ministers, and family. My "accidentally falling" into a lake knowing I couldn't swim at age 9 was foiled by my brother and dad pulling me out after several minutes, so after that I decided to just do the best I could until I was older and see how that cooked up.So congrats on seeing the truth, Irina has some good vlog entries on basics, and not only is she a fortunately attractive woman she was born with a good mind that she used to find the truth. I am sure her net presence can help many people like you realize that who's crazy are the natalists, not us. You might also be interested in the Voluntary Human Extinction Movement if you have an environmental component to your AN, and/or the Anti-natalist FB group (smaller, more slice and dice philosophy). Some sharp folks, and you can refine your understanding and discussion techniques with people and trolls who visit, good mental fencing, fundamentally. I've visited Greece and Italy, some beautiful history and country, have to say that I found at least some of the Greeks to be a bit rude and uncivilized, but maybe that was just some bad luck on my part. |
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26-03-2017
Oh, absolutely, thanks, Kirk, for mentioning the Facebook groups. I used to frequent those, I think they're a good place when you feel especially lonely and need like-minded people to talk to. There's antinatalism and philosophical pessimism groups, everyone can just search them up. But now for some reason I'm too apathetic to socialize there, or anywhere through the internet for that matter. Must be what's going on in my country, because that's when this apathy started I think. Even though I'm doing ok, it's just the whole living under constant threat and things seemingly heading nowhere, sort of living in a country without a future, like on a sinking ship. I mean, lots of places have problems of one kind or another, but here it's not even possible to plan your retirement fund, for example. All our banks can be gone tomorrow along with the money you put there. And we are not allowed to open accounts in foreign banks. My parents today get pensions that are just enough for buying food, after having worked 30 years, and if I would like to avoid that what do I do? There's no answer, this country has none. And unlike my parents, who have kids to help them, I'm not going to have any children when I'm old. All these thoughts are depressing. Oh well, I'll probably not stick around till I'm old-old anyway, so that's my retirement plan: suicide, lol :P |
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26-03-2017
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And we are not allowed to open accounts in foreign banks. Why is that? It obviously doesn't prevent that 'Ukrainian businessman' (including your chocolate king, as rumors say) horde their money on offshore accounts. I wouldn't mind if had to work until I drop dead. But ok, if I become demented or otherwise cognitively impaired that would be a problem. And people get strokes and neurological diseases all the time, so there are good chances that this could happen. And blindness would be a problem too, and if something happens to my hands, and .. nah I better stop thinking about that now. I am not overly optimist about the European economy and its stability. Our financial system seems to be only hold together by a weird unstable kludge that I am not too confident in. And every saved Euro might not be worth anything if that crumples. So I have the same retirement plan as you. And imho the only one that is really reliable and it’s a good idea to take the necessary precautions: LSD (I am a pussy when it comes to dying, and this can help) along with an euthanasia kit. And it’s also much cheaper than any other retirement plan. |
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26-03-2017
Why is that? I've gotten too tired asking that same question. Other regulations of our central bank prevent Paypal from fully coming in. Although tey have just lisfted one archaic requirement, where an entrepreneur receiving international wire trasfer had to show the bank the contracts with the sender, and those contracts had to have a 'wet' stamp on it, not just a signature. So that was probably the only improvement that took place in the last few years. About f*ing time. But overall corruption is still rampant, there's no catching and jailing of those who steal big, even after all the deaths and war and existential threat to this country - that tells me that nothing is going to stop this cancer spreading. Those who can are going to keep milking this country dry until there's nothing left or until they're shot dead on the spot. I wouldn't mind if had to work until I drop dead. Right, provided you're in relatively good health. LSD eh? Thanks for reminding me of it, I think most everyone is a pussy to off themselves or even just die 'naturally'. LOL, almost sounds like a slogan for a TV commercial: purchase your LSD+euthanasia kit today, the cheapest retirement plan!)))) |
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26-03-2017 I understand the apathy. I feel that way every day. Especially with our new Putin underling and Congress in charge who want to destroy any chance of aging with any dignity or security and want to destroy the very little and poorly working and very expensive healthcare while robbing Social Security to give tax breaks to wealthy people.I worked for over 35 years to try and save and went through two large stock crashes and never taught long enough to qualify for a pension and software companies were either too new to even consider pensions. Govt. or other employers had cut off new employees from joining a pension plan, and Texas is a "right to work" state (Republican speak), which is code for employers can fire you at any time and unions are fundamentally outlawed except for some very old ones like police and firefighters. Almost certainly age will take your health in various ways, from blindness to arthritis, etc., so don't plan on working until you die @thememe, odds are against it. Also stats here show that is can be 2 to 4 times harder to find work after the age of 50, tests were done and resumes were just filed or discarded if the person was deemed to be "too old". Ukraine is definitely worse than the US, at least currently, though forces are in motion to turn the States into a banana republic and I'm really not sure how it will all turn out. About half the people in the US are ignorant, uneducated, and easily led, so we are on a razor's edge now. Most friendships, dating, employment now are all sharply divided between the two political factions and there is very little mixing because of it. Saw this somewhere, "It's easier to fool people than it is to convince them that they are being fooled." Good to read your response, Irina, I love your intelligence and, at a minimum, internet presence. You might be a real bitch in real life (I doubt it) but online I really enjoy sharing with you and others on this blog. There is another woman from here in Dallas, Dana Wells, who posts some good video as The Friendly Antinatalist, so that might be another source for whomever is interested. She looks, has the same first name, and speaks just like a housemate I had in college, really a bit freaky. |
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26-03-2017
I worked for over 35 years Must have started early because you don't look it. Almost certainly age will take your health in various ways, from blindness to arthritis, etc. I find it rather easy to imagine because I can feel it worsening already and I'm only 32 (well, by 'only' I mean previous generations reportedly were healthier at that age, but that's just my parents memories so ... idunno) and some problems I've had since a was a kid, they don't seem to get better with age. Anyway, I've no illusions (sneaking hopes, - maybe, but only a dumb idiot plans his future on hope) LOL, I doubt that I'm a bitch but bitchy I can be when I feel it is the appropriate response/attitude towards somebody. I enjoy seeing you coming back and commenting on my blog, too! Hey, I have Dana Wells in FB friends. So she makes videos? Cool! |
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27-03-2017 She presents well and her Dallas accent reminds me of the sorority girls from Dallas-Ft. Worth that I knew at the University of Texas at Austin. "Why I am antinatalist" and "Bingoed" is so Texas accent. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fl2u1bPmWuI Well, I wasn't counting my work in that 35 year total on the farm from age 8 nor "official" work on the assembly line at age 16, nor the tutoring, construction work, pizza delivery, nor modeling I did in college, just professional teaching and engineering positions! Keep in touch, Irina, and post anything to give me a reason to comment. |
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27-03-2017
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LOL, almost sounds like a slogan for a TV commercial: purchase your LSD+euthanasia kit today, the cheapest retirement plan!)))) Hey, good idea. Maybe I should try to get something like that patented. In the form of special, optimized mixture, maybe? Mmmh... And, as it seems to be, we are moving towards a 'children of men' - like future, that could be become a lucrative business. quote:
I find it rather easy to imagine because I can feel it worsening already I always had all sorts of weird health issues: migraines, chronical pains, autoimmune-related issues and so on..I blame it on having bad nerves, which seems to be bad for the body. Somehow I had hoped that all of that would kill me early, but my grandfather, who is only one in my family who is also like me (and always had similar issues) already entered his 90s. Though he is in pretty good shape, for me it's pretty incomprehensible and unsettling that I may still have to live 50 or 60 years. Ugh! |
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27-03-2017 @Irina I thought you might like this..The Onion is sometimes spot on.http://www.theonion.com/article/archaeologists-uncover-last-human-die-happy-55592?utm_content=Main&utm_campaign=SF&utm_source=Facebook&utm_medium=SocialMarketing |
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30-03-2017
I liked the ending: “"However, enthusiasm for the recent findings has reportedly been tempered by a competing theory that Felix was only content at the time of his death because he had decided to kill himself and end his agony all at once." :D Onien does produce some sharp content now and again. |
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28-03-2017 Btw. Pessimism about the future may lead to a longer life: http://www.apa.org/news/press/releases/2013/02/pessimism-future.aspxGoddammit! I am doing it wrong the whole time. I'll convert to optimism now! Cant't be that hard... |
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30-03-2017
Yeah, that's basically embracing the doom, learning notgivingafuckery and thus protecting your nervous system from being strained all the time or suffering from powerful disappointment that are bound to happen. As they say, pessimist is either proven right or pleasantly surprised. I regularly have conversations with my mother, trying to teach her the art of notgivingafuckery and expecting things to be fucked up, especially in this part of the world, where they've been so more often than not, historically. But she is set in her ways and keeps having her blood pressure spike from worrying and dissapointments. A person can live into their 70ies and still have their illusions of just and ordered world preserved, amazing! |
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01-04-2017 @Irina I saw this quote, "It's easier to fool someone than to convince them that they are being fooled." I have found this to be ever so true, unfortunately. Governments, businesses, churches, schools, and more all depend on it. |
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05-12-2017 Dear Irina,I hope you are doing allright in the far away Ukraine, at least far away for me. Greetings from Paraguay. RaГєl |
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07-12-2017
Hola Raúl, ¿Cómo Estás? How do you people live with those accented letters 'ú', 'ó' etc? Difficult for a novice to remember)) I'm ok, could be worse, could be better. Learning Spanish bit by bit, when not lazy. Probably will finish in 5 years at such rate, hahaha. |
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08-02-2018 I have struggled with these types of questions all of my adult life, but you make some very good points. I find exercise to be a real key in staving off depression from which I have suffered since fifteen years of age. It helps regulate the brain's chemical cocktail that determines our mood. I have groped for meaning, but staying physically fit (I am a bodybuilder) is very therapeutic for even the darkest of minds. It is a real shot in the arm in the worst times. Hope you keep up the routine,you look to be a very fit young woman. Have as nice a day as a pessimistic philosopher can have. |
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21-02-2019 I don't get why so many people seek so desperately external meaning, and base their entire logic on that. There are often either religions, or anti-religious. Is it so difficult to find your internal meaning? Have you considered being something, just because you believe in it, and not caring what a "God" or the "Universe" "made" you? I feel homo sapiens is so fragile creature, it can't do anything alone and by itself. Exactly because there is no fixed meaning, as part of the life, but you can create meaning thought reason, you have free choice. Earth would be a much better place if people start to read more... They read one book, and they are convinced they now know everything in the Universe...The problem is not the lack of meaning, but what this life really is. You don't get to the core of the problem. Being "happy" on this planet is very illusive, since you have two choices: - living in a moral society, that can create internal meaning for themselves. However, this looks impossible at least on this planet, because of the deficiency of its most evolved form... Religions were one method to "fake" such thing, however it had to develop into something rational and personal, for which most people are incapable by a long shot. But even if they do, does it matter, if they become evolutionary unfit to leave a legacy... So, this is a no go. Maybe at least a single creature then? Well, I can't say I've found even such unicorn. IMO, one should lower the expectations even more, and settle for a pet. It can't be really moral, but at least it will let you be moral towards it (unlike humans)... I would love to work in a zoo, or animal help, but sadly I live in a poor country which can't afford such first world things... - give yourself to your animalistic desires, ignoring that most of the time they will affect negatively someone else. Since this is just the way we were created, we treat everything around us as objects to satisfy our needs. And if you don't... well you have even smaller chance to be understood, since people relate only based using, or being used (aka sado-maso).... Trying to build moral relationships with others, looks as difficult as sending people on the moon (which we actually doubtfully did). So at the end, of course the only sure thing is death, but here is a difficult question. How would you like to die? As a moral or immoral creature? Maybe the Universe doesn't care, but do you? And is it possible at all to die morally, with dignity? If you destroy yourself, another people can suffer, but if you don't - you will suffer because of what you've become. Happily for me, I have very few people around to consider, but still... I would fully agree with the prison part. Damn if you do damn if you don't... |
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