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lol nope, Brian, this is how I am completely sober 

that's why i never tried any drugs other than marijuana (which i didn't like either), if i'm in the mood and I'm confty and safe and healthy and there's nobody spoiling my fun, I'm having fun naturally. I don't mind drinking a little of dry wine or cocktails but getting drunk isn't something I enjoy.

happy new year to you too!

Oh I know about 'flow', think i've experienced it a few times. Also, back in the 7th grade I attended karate section for half a year, then our teacher moved out of town. Really liked it. I know how the thing you first start carefully and methodically learning after some time come automatically, that's cool.

Really, Irina, I wish I could just give you a big hug! You are so refreshingly straightforward, honest, intelligent, insightful, and still visually entertaining I lament the fact that we live so far apart.  I think we could really have an interesting friendship

You're generous with compliments so I think that friendship might have worked  Thank you, makes me feel less lonely too.

Well, who knows, I might visit US one day. Not sure if Texas in particular but I heard your domestic flights are not terribly expensive. Ukrainian ones are, because of monopoly, oligarchs - the works.

You are right on about living life, and I am just a bit ahead of you. The problem comes when you have done a lot to distract yourself (with real interest, mostly) and everything becomes been there done that and it is hard to distract yourself any more.

Gee, thanks for "encouragement", future is looking even brighter now. Have you tried organized crime? lol jk

my friend says her English is good (probably better than his, actually).

LOL

Neh, pessimistic message doesn't go with bikini dancing, it's too life-affirming. Unless the bikini and what's in it is really ugly, lol))) Then it's a weapon of mass distruction)))

happy new year to you too

in another universe, where natalists are marginalized and antinatalists rule (don't ask me how, lols), I imagine you, Kirk, a candidate for some post, running for an office, saying this speach and getting applause from your electorate 

Hi Bernardo,

I know, I feel this holiday is especially stupid, although there are numerous stupid things people do. If they had just admitted that they like to have a day in the calendar to gather in mobs and party and have fun - noting wrong with that, i mean, at least it's honest. All these wishes, waiting specifically for the 12th stroke of the clock, resolutions, consulting astrologers what color to wear on the day, what animal is it by Chinese calendar, and then this unfounded cheer all of a sudden. Here's a tip: be cheerful any day you want, you don't need a reason, especially not this kind of a 'reason'. Here's a quote I read in my video on New Year's Eve (by Chekhov), I think it's spot on:

I think that during our traditional New Year’s Eve parties people should fight, be miserable, cry, and attempt suicide. One must remember that each new year leads you closer to death, the bald spot on your head spreads, the wrinkles on your face grow deeper, your wife gets older, and with every new year you have more kids and less money.

I actually don't care if other people celebrate. But because there's such a pressure in society, I can't just stay home and work and play like any other day. Unless I also go out to celebrate with friends somewhere, my mother expects me to come and 'greet' the coming year with her. She's not like me and will feel lonely if on this particular day some sort of a celebration doesn't take place. So for me it's just a little annoyance that although I come and have dinners with parents once in a while anyway, on this day - god knows why - I have to. I mean, isn't it idiotic? But whatever, fine.

It just feels that a grandiouse display of ecstatic joy such magnitude would've been predicated upon some great achievements of humanity: finding a cure for an epidemic, bringing food and water to all parts of the world, ending all wars... I imagine aliens looking at our planet on that day and wondering what great thing might we have accomplished being so ecstatic, all of us, on the same day. And then finding out is just us miserable assholes who can't stop fighting one another celebrating a 31st of December turning into 1st of January every year, regardless of what's actually happening on our planet. Wouldn't any rational beings think we were retarded? Rhetorical question.